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#09 Meditation

Posted: April 28th, 2009 | Author: | Filed under: Life | No Comments »

[Post Rewritten] –

Update Thursday, 14th May 2009:

My posts are often spontaneous, written as a result of present realization.

Because of that, they may not be complete at times.

On the subject of meditation, I would like you to learn from a teacher I respect truly and fully.

You’ll sense “knowing” from his words.

Please discover more by reading his blog article on this subject:

#08 Complete Surrender

Posted: April 28th, 2009 | Author: | Filed under: Life | 6 Comments »

I’m going to do this tomorrow.

I’ve just read “The Translucent Revolution” by Arjuna Ardagh in several parts.

Just allowed my “I” to pick which chapter to read.

And after reading it on my bed, I’ve decided to do this.

“Complete Surrender.”

As I type these words, I wasn’t at all thinking.

I was completely letting the words fall on this blank canvas of my blog one by one.

Did I have to control every word really?

I don’t know.

Sometimes complete surrender calls to us.

And if we allow it, let it, perhaps something else amazing could happen.

Could I put myself in trouble?

Could destiny do what it seems to be good at doing again?

Could it mess up my life and put me in a distressful state?

I believe…

This will all lead to a collective balance and healing.

Either ways.

Listen – completely surrendering doesn’t mean you don’t do anything.


Your instincts wouldn’t allow you to.

Your “I” will prompt you in a direction.

That’s what I’m gonna do, following it.

I really wish this message could spread.

Because you and I are One.

And the collective “I” needs to know about this truth.

It’s time.

#07 Another Seemingly Spiritual Snippet From “Beck”

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#06 Spiritual Practice Is Never-Ending

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I think I get it.


I don’t know.

So yesterday I wrote to you about how destiny may mess with you sometimes.

It happened to me, and I was out there to seek an answer for why it happened.

I lied.

I didn’t go out to seek an answer.

I was just waiting to see what happens.

As usual, I work.

Slowly, I was regaining the peacefulness within me.

I started to realize something.

No matter what happens, I’ll always drop deeper into consciousness for a while.

And then come back to my usual mindfulness.

I try hard to keep myself spacious.

But the fact is in this current reality we live in – you’ll still always be pulled out of your “I.”

Because it’s hard going against so many people who hold their own realities based on the delusion we’re programmed with.

And I thought**, “Maybe, just maybe… destiny says there are still more things that should happen before the complete whole spiritual awakening wave within people in the world should start.”

Perhaps a sudden change may only cause more harm than good.


Mind stuff.

I still need it.

To live in this world, to keep ourselves alive, to ensure that there are colors throughout our lifetime.

I just don’t need it to govern my life.

We just don’t need it to govern our lives.

There’s a balance.

#05 Destiny Plays With You Sometimes

Posted: April 27th, 2009 | Author: | Filed under: Life | No Comments »

As the subject line expresses, sometimes destiny turns something that you’d thought was going to be amazing into something crappy.

Why did it do so?

Until today, I still have completely no idea.

This morning, I started off to work feeling on top of the world.

Because a series of incredible events really did happen in the few hours before I got into my car this morning.

During midnight, I was going through my work and polishing up a masterpiece of mine to the shiniest state it can ever get.

By around 8.30am – the work was done.

Inside my mind I thought, “Destiny is going to work with me for this right? It was for a product on spirituality, awakening and recognizing the consciousness within you after all!”

There is a tidal wave of change happening in our times right now as testified by many of the most established teachers in the spiritual or self development field.

People were accepting this awakening within them like never before in the past century!

What used to awaken 1 out of 10 people in a spiritual class 10-30 years ago, now release 6 out of 10 people out of their delusions of reality although nothing much in the lessons has changed.

So this must be good, right?

But boy was I wrong.

I drove to work feeling grateful, satisfied, safe, content and ‘knowing’ today.

However, I left work at 6.30pm feeling depressed.

Not just depressed depressed, I was totally worn out.

Worn out by destiny.

The piece of work I’ve done the whole midnight was changed.

It had to be reworked, even though it’s one of the best pieces I’ve ever put together.

When I first left home this morning, I left with serene, calmness and wisdom.

When I came back in the evening, I returned with a temper, an underlying anger, a feeling like the world’s always against me.

Not so much because my work needs to be changed – no, that’s not the case at all.

It’s the fact that destiny has not-so-subtly HINTED at the ignition of this consciousness within all people in these times… has made it seem so possible that my work could deliver an impactful message of awakening to the world this time and then finally turning back and smack me in the face saying: “NOT!” that really stabbed me.

This IS the perfect time to spread this spiritual consciousness isn’t it?

Without realizing it…

I’ve had around one hour of nap after I hit the bed with all my heavy feelings.

I woke up at approximately 9.15pm.

After a while, I thought of typing a blog post to you.

Well, just to let you know that destiny fucks with you sometimes.

I just can’t wait to see what happens in the next few days.

Whether this happened for a reason.

If it didn’t happen for any reason, I can’t do anything anyways.

Have you listened to Gnarl Barkley’s song, “Crazy?”

Hamlet by Shakespeare once said, “There’s a destiny which shapes our ends, rough-hew them how we will.”

Indicating that you can live life as crudely as you want. Do whatever you want. Ultimately your life will still be shaped by destiny.

Expressing that we’re not entirely in control.

Pretty sucky truth to swallow huh?

I know.

But maybe what’s coming is always better this way.

I don’t know.

Update, 1st May 2009:

I’ve learned why destiny worked this way.

I was in the way.

The way of happiness starts with you getting out of the way.

By letting of the ego, and letting the divine or destiny do what it chooses.

We’re not supposed to push things, but do what little things we can based on our heart and instincts.

Spontaneity will guide you. Trust it. You’ll be happier.

#04 …Where Destiny Will Take You?

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Where Destiny Takes You?

...Where Destiny Will Take You?

#03 A Recent Windows Live Messenger Conversation On Awakening

Posted: April 25th, 2009 | Author: | Filed under: Life | No Comments »

Him – says:

What I’d say is…

There is an awakening in most people’s consciousness

To open up to something greater than themselves

Sooner or later…

Most of us would realize why we even existed.

Friend says:

Lol, but everyone must find the trigger to open that up

Him says:

What happens if there’s no trigger?

That is the direction which I meant to point at

Destiny, surrendering, no mind.

Surrender in its purest sense, without the mind’s interpretation

In who you really are’s view

In the past, we were just too stuck in our minds

We couldn’t recognize its presence

But I finally get it

It’s there, and it’s connected to everything

#02 Want A Life-Changing, Perhaps Entertaining Awakening?

Posted: April 25th, 2009 | Author: | Filed under: Life | No Comments »

“The light of angels wavering in the darkness.”

I’ve read that from what seems to be the greatest entertainment I’ve ever had in my life.

In a piece of manga called “Beck.”

In the beginning when I was introduced to it, I held a skepticism for it.

I was told, “This was the best thing I’ve ever read.”

That was three years ago.

Today, this morning, I arrived at chapter 99 of this book.

I’ve read it up to 93 almost half a year ago, but decided to read from chapter 1 again three weeks ago.

Something, I’d say, this “angel within the darkness” prompted me to.

And… I’m glad to say I’ve had the best times of my life reading it.

Nothing, I mean nothing had ever made me feel this happy, released and satisfied before.

I present you Beck.

Talks about music – how a teen from age 14 got involved into a band.

A band so intimate, it makes you think of what kind of relationships are really possible in this world

How they face all the hardships which would be impossible for most of us to rise above.

And how they get through it together.

Over and over again:

P.S. Sometimes, it’s not about the entertainment.

It’s about the truth which is calling from you from underneath the surface of the water.

P.P.S. The beginning chapters may seem meaningless.

But I assure you, it’ll lead up to an entertaining ‘roller-coaster’ ride.

#01 Presence, Consciousness, “I”, Now, Awakening…

Posted: April 20th, 2009 | Author: | Filed under: Life | Tags: , , , , , | No Comments »

I learned a lot from Arjuna Ardagh, founder of “Living Essence Foundation” in the past week.

It was an awakening experience.

Imagine seeing your thoughts, feelings, body, or anything else like they’re independent parts of you.

Yes, parts of you – because there’s a higher ‘person’ in charge looking over them, and independent – because they could control you instead sometimes.

So during this process, I’ve been through different states.

Even been zonked out of my logical mind.

And I found a glaring problem: You see, when you get into this state of awakening, of realizing your consciousness, sometimes you go way overboard and it can be too ecstatic.

As if you’re not identified with reality anymore. (That’s why you see people who’ve gone through this experience who sometimes quit their jobs to preach this, to seek deeper for this experience, or just go to the mountains and become monks.)

But ultimately, we’re all still living in it.

And I was taught neither way – being too connected to spirituality or this current reality – is the right way to live.

Because the key to an ideal condition of life on earth lies in balance.

So I was curious on what was the balance in this.

And then Hani, a friend of mine came up to give a presentation on “Manifesting” this Tuesday. She shared tons of stuff which were valuable on the subject. For me, what was most valuable was when she talked about the “bubbly” feeling and the “sinking” feeling.

Where she shared about how you should always feel good of the essence of what you wish, so the Universe will choose to grant you what you desire since your vibrations match.

That if you want to get rich, well – feel it often in a good way. And usually when that happens you get the ‘bubbly’ feeling.

For some reason, that sparked something in my mind subconsciously.

Now what Arjuna have taught is that your consciousness is connected to a higher source of collective, maybe, another ‘consciousness’

But this one connects all of us – or actually, it may be the one who creates ‘your destiny.’

Now what I realize is when you do stuff out of your mind, and go against what your consciousness actually feels like doing – you get this sinking feeling.

Yes, right. Go against it, you get the sinking feeling.

And guess what?

Usually after that, you notice you’ve just pushed yourself into deep ‘poo’ too.

On the other hand – if you stop thinking, stop feeling, stop guiding your actions with your mind and then let go…

When consciousness (or what feels like instincts) with its clarity hints you at doing something, and you just surrender into doing it anyways –

You’ll discover something amazing – what comes next will either make you:

1.) Happy – Something fun, exciting, new, fresh or (insert positive feeling) will come up
2.) Happier – That event will lead to something more fun, exciting, new, fresh or (insert positive feeling) on top of that
2.) Fulfilled – You’ll accomplish a purpose ‘your destiny’ decides you do

“Haha. Wait… you’re kidding, right?”

Why not give it a try?

Feelin good? Go ahead.

Feeling that sinkin stuff? Maybe next time.

Of course, you need your consciousness to tell you that – not your mind.

And to get what this consciousness stuff I’ve been telling you this whole time, there’s only one best simple fast way:

Listen to Arjuna Ardagh’s “Let Yourself Go” 6 CD program.

I don’t think there’ll ever be a simpler material than this product on spiritual awakening. OK maybe I’m just biased because it gave me my first awakening to consciousness, but since this guy graduated from Cambridge he really did make a lot of sense.

So, thanks for reading.

P.S. Remember the greatest moments of your life? Remember how they happened? Hm… were YOU the one who created that chance, opportunity or event… or did it just happened TO you anyway?

P.P.S. The key, is to be humble. And surrender to your destiny, because it always have something better in store for you.

Update 22nd October, 2009:

I had written this from a different perspective of what I understand now.

Back then, I had not much knowledge of Truth.

However, it is not what I’ve written that mattered.

This is my first post on this blog – which eventually led to many more discoveries and inspirations as shown within the writings herein.

So, enjoy the ride.

Oh, and yeah – wanted to rephrase the “sinking” and “bubbly” heart feeling better.

Instead of sensing for those sensations, this would be a clearer way:

Sense if your heart contracts or expands, even for a little bit. It may happen real quick, or stay on for a long time. Either ways, you should forget neither technique in the end.

They will help, but only for a while.

BecauseĀ  what lies down this path, eventually leads to “No-Mind.”

In “No-Mind,” you’d only have to be present, conscious, observant without thought.

You’d be Free.