As the subject line expresses, sometimes destiny turns something that you’d thought was going to be amazing into something crappy.
Why did it do so?
Until today, I still have completely no idea.
This morning, I started off to work feeling on top of the world.
Because a series of incredible events really did happen in the few hours before I got into my car this morning.
During midnight, I was going through my work and polishing up a masterpiece of mine to the shiniest state it can ever get.
By around 8.30am – the work was done.
Inside my mind I thought, “Destiny is going to work with me for this right? It was for a product on spirituality, awakening and recognizing the consciousness within you after all!”
There is a tidal wave of change happening in our times right now as testified by many of the most established teachers in the spiritual or self development field.
People were accepting this awakening within them like never before in the past century!
What used to awaken 1 out of 10 people in a spiritual class 10-30 years ago, now release 6 out of 10 people out of their delusions of reality although nothing much in the lessons has changed.
So this must be good, right?
But boy was I wrong.
I drove to work feeling grateful, satisfied, safe, content and ‘knowing’ today.
However, I left work at 6.30pm feeling depressed.
Not just depressed depressed, I was totally worn out.
Worn out by destiny.
The piece of work I’ve done the whole midnight was changed.
It had to be reworked, even though it’s one of the best pieces I’ve ever put together.
When I first left home this morning, I left with serene, calmness and wisdom.
When I came back in the evening, I returned with a temper, an underlying anger, a feeling like the world’s always against me.
Not so much because my work needs to be changed – no, that’s not the case at all.
It’s the fact that destiny has not-so-subtly HINTED at the ignition of this consciousness within all people in these times… has made it seem so possible that my work could deliver an impactful message of awakening to the world this time and then finally turning back and smack me in the face saying: “NOT!” that really stabbed me.
This IS the perfect time to spread this spiritual consciousness isn’t it?
Without realizing it…
I’ve had around one hour of nap after I hit the bed with all my heavy feelings.
I woke up at approximately 9.15pm.
After a while, I thought of typing a blog post to you.
Well, just to let you know that destiny fucks with you sometimes.
I just can’t wait to see what happens in the next few days.
Whether this happened for a reason.
If it didn’t happen for any reason, I can’t do anything anyways.
Have you listened to Gnarl Barkley’s song, “Crazy?”
Hamlet by Shakespeare once said, “There’s a destiny which shapes our ends, rough-hew them how we will.”
Indicating that you can live life as crudely as you want. Do whatever you want. Ultimately your life will still be shaped by destiny.
Expressing that we’re not entirely in control.
Pretty sucky truth to swallow huh?
But maybe what’s coming is always better this way.
I don’t know.
Update, 1st May 2009:
I’ve learned why destiny worked this way.
I was in the way.
The way of happiness starts with you getting out of the way.
By letting of the ego, and letting the divine or destiny do what it chooses.
We’re not supposed to push things, but do what little things we can based on our heart and instincts.
Spontaneity will guide you. Trust it. You’ll be happier.