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#48 S.N. Goenka’s Speech to United Nations: Our Highest Potential as Humanity

Posted: October 30th, 2009 | Author: | Filed under: Life | No Comments »

Thought to share this with you:

This consciousness of awakening to our true selves is spreading, even into politics.

Let’s spread the same message, so we could experience this new time in history where love, peace, meaning & happiness permeates the world, while we’re still alive.

Sidenote: He teaches Vipassana, a way of meditation. I don’t do it, simply because I do my best to make every conscious moment a meditation. However, prior to doing this I first trained my mind into quiescence by sitting quietly. It may be challenging in the beginning for one to silence the mental chatter even for a few seconds, so meditation is the key towards improvement. With that said, the goal is for you to be able to stay with your seed of consciousness – unchanged by thoughts, perceptions or intentions at all times. When done you’ll find that not only are you filled with distinct clarity, your life will feel much more liberated, undiscovered potentials & talents will also emerge.

#47 Human Experience as a Result of Chemical Reactions?

Posted: October 29th, 2009 | Author: | Filed under: Life | 12 Comments »

I watched a video yesterday by Stephen Wolinsky, PhD on his experiences & learnings from Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj.

Never knew how to put this whole, finding your true self and actually living life concept together clearly until I watched it.

So I’m going to put a short note here in this blog post on what I learned:

Basically, human lives are actually created by chemical reactions.

Why is this so? Because our experiences as living beings are actually created by nervous systems.

Without nervous systems, this world would not exist.

E.g. If you can’t feel, you can’t have sensations. If you are deaf, there would be no sound. If you can’t taste, there would be no sweet, salty, sour & bitter. If you are blind, the world practically disappears.

Combine all together, and you wouldn’t realize any of the world’s existence.

That is why all of our lives are actually created by a series of chemical reactions in our brains giving us constant ‘nervous system experiences.’

The question is, what comprises these chemicals, our nervous systems, our bodies?

It basically comes down to this:

Nucleus, Electrons

Atom, formed by Nucleus & Electrons

The comparative description scientists gave was, if you were to expand a nucleus to the size of the sun, and its electrons the size of the earth –

The space that exists between the nucleus and the electrons would be much further than the space between sun & earth.

In other words, there is a WHOLE LOT of empty space.

So considering this, if there is a whole lot of empty space between every matter, then… are we interconnected?

Yes, of course.

Science has even shown that if you continue magnifying deeper into a nucleus, you’ll soon find out that it’s made up of subatomic particles, quarks, and ultimately as energy out of nowhere when further examined.

Energy, out of nowhere.

Therefore nothing is separate in the end.

Einstein, Emptiness

Ultimately, we’re condensed from emptiness according to Einstein.

As we thin out from this condensation, all we return to is emptiness as well.

One more little piece of entertainment/information before I end this post:

German scientists have also found out that there cannot be “free will.”

Want to know why?

If all our experiences are created by a series of chemical reactions,

And chemical reactions happen PRIOR to our experiences,

And thoughts are a product of these chemical reactions,

Then we don’t really come up with any thoughts after all.

Interesting, don’t you think?

#46 How Does the True Self Feel Like

Posted: October 24th, 2009 | Author: | Filed under: Life | No Comments »

You’ve heard people say that we are in actuality One.

But how can you understand this?

I got this picture in my mind a while ago:

It is likened to a man in the forest asking, “When will the fire of my true Self consume me?”

But he didn’t realize that because of his mind’s misdirection, of its distraction, he was only able to look down at the patch of untouched grass before his eyes.

Little did he realize that the forest which houses him, surrounding him, was all burning with fire this whole while.

Assuming your true nature is God, but is distracted by the ‘ego’ or mind, this is what’s happening. The forest is burning. But the illusion was created to block you away from It, to put you in a puny little tiny space where your Self is restricted, controlled, supressed.

The only way out is to realize this fact, know that happiness is only attained in the presence of your true Self, and let the burning forest consume you in whole.

Let the fire consume the illusion (mind) of the green patch of grass, along with everything that exist within the space.

Then you’d finally realize how your true Self feels like.

Always burning, always is, Now.

Without illusion, without ego, without mind.


Posted: October 24th, 2009 | Author: | Filed under: Life | 6 Comments »

“Soon it would be known to mankind that it isn’t the ability to control the mind, but to silence the mind, that greatness is achieved.”

“Wherever you are, whether in worldly society or the forest, the same mind is always with you. It is the same old mind, wherever you reside.”

“It is not actions themselves that should be given up, but the inner feeling that one is doing them.”

“When the mind goes out like a monkey bring it back again.
Again it will go and again bring it back.
Again it will go and again bring it back.
Play the game and eventually the mind will stop going.”

“Concentrate not on achieving No-Mind. Effortlessly be it in the present. Since the cessation of thoughtwaves are true reasons why we’re happy, you’re giving yourself the best being here and now.”

“Mind is only in doubts and desires. Only then do you need mind. Now the trick of the mind is over. Now if the mind comes to you it will be your slave, your servant to look after your body requirements, not to command you to do this or that and trouble you. It will become like a slave. You are not to think anything, it will serve you. But if you do not know that it is a servant, you will suffer.”

“Once you gain an object of desire, another one will be there. One fulfilled another one is waiting. Even kings are not happy. “No-desire” is absolute bliss. And when you are bliss, then there is peace. When there is peace, then there is stillness of mind. When there is stillness of mind, this is freedom.”

#44 Vivek: Discrimination Between Peace & Suffering

Posted: October 22nd, 2009 | Author: | Filed under: Life | No Comments »

Here is Papaji’s teachings on an Indian term “Vivek.”

I found it crucial for Self discovery, so I’m sharing it here.

This is its explanation:


Vivek is the intellect asking and determining
if something is transient or permanent.
Vivek is the choice between the bliss of Self
and the pleasures of the senses; between peace and disturbance.

With Vivek pick up what is real or else you will make a mistake.
Wise living is discriminating between the false from the true,
between joy and suffering, and then rejecting what you are not.
Discrimination destroys clinging by exposing the transcience,
the illusory nature, of the object to be clung to.

You must always be centered in Self.
That Self alone is the Truth, all else is falsehood.
A strong understanding of this in your mind is important.
Instantly reason it out: is it a rope or is it a snake!
Faulty discrimination is a prison,
in which you are slave to an imaginary snake.


#43 How to Be Your True Self

Posted: October 19th, 2009 | Author: | Filed under: Life | 1 Comment »

What is the difference between desire, and Love?

When you desire, your heart aches for it.

When you Love, purely, genuinely, in the presence –

Your whole body will be filled with the sensation of Love.

It has been said that our true nature is existence, consciousness, bliss.

Bliss which means – Peace, Happiness, Love.

Since it is so, by being Love you are being your true Self.

And the way to being your true Self, you’ve just learned.

It has also been said that likes and dislikes stop us from being our true Selves.

In this case, by Loving, everything, while staying fully in the present, with your whole body, allowing everything to happen, you melt away likes and dislikes.

Yes, allowing yourself to be Love.

And then also allowing yourself to forget of this notion of letting yourself be Love thereafter.

There are no shoulds.

You’ll have to let go of desires at some point.

To become your true Self.

Let it be Now!

When done, your physical reality will relax.

But your vision will expand, clearly, crisply, filling with clarity & focus of all that is beautiful.

Which means everything, even that which you don’t previously admire.

Let the mind go, let the Nothingness stay.

Open your eyes, Observe Reality.

Stay in the moment, Love with all your being.

Then simply Allow.

This way, even the worst situations can be turned into a bearable one.

At the end of this post, forget everything you’ve learned here.

Stay only with your presence, that is The Way.

#42 Self, According to Papaji

Posted: October 19th, 2009 | Author: | Filed under: Life | No Comments »

Papaji, My Guru

Who are you? Where do you come from? Many times you came and many times you returned. You have never attempted to ask yourself who you are. If you had done so, you would never have returned to this miserable samsara. When you have known, this karma ceases to function, samsara ceases to exist. You return to your original fundamental nature – to Being, to Existence, to Bliss. That is what you are. That is what you have been. That is what you are going to be.

So here is how to do it – it is very easy. Let me introduce you to what is going on here. To begin with, find out who is the one who sees. Ask yourself the question: “Who is the seer?” Find out what is seen. That which is seen is the object and the seer is the subject. The seer – subject – must be separate from the object, different from the object. It is that which is seeing the object. The object is that which is seen. The seer is looking at the object – you are not the object. You may see anything: a horse, a cow, a car, a building, or anything. You are not that. You are the seer.

When you experience your own body you may think that you are the body, but you are not the body. You experience, “I see the body.” so you are the seer of the body. It is here that you make the mistake: You become the body and you forget that you are the seer. You have become an object when you say, “I am doing. I am seeing. I am tasting. I am touching. I am smelling. I am hearing.” You have lost your bearings and become the body – the seer is no longer separated from the body. Whatever is seen is an object, so when the body is objectified who is the seer? When you see the body it becomes an object. Whatever you see is an object. If you see your eyes they are objects; if you see your hands they are objects.

What about the mind? You know very well that if your mind is suffering it is not at peace. You know the activities of the mind also. You know, “Now my mind is thinking or not thinking.” This means that you are also aware of the activities of the mind. You are something other than the mind. You are not the mind. You are neither the mind nor the body.

The same is true of the working of the senses. When you are working, walking, or talking, you know very well, “I am at work, my hands are working.” You know very well that you are not the hand; something else is commanding the hands to work. You are something other than the movement of physical activities. You are not even that.

Now consider the intellect. You decide, “I have to do this. I have to go to Lucknow.” You decided and you are here. You guided the intellect to make the decision, “Let’s go to Lucknow.” then you followed the intellect. So you are guiding even the intellect and you know very well that the intellect is something other than you.

Find out who you are – here and now. You are not the mind. You are not even the prana – the breathing. You know very well that breathing is in and out, inhaling and exhaling. You can feel, “I am inhaling, I am exhaling.” You know this activity also. Who is watching the inhaling and exhaling? This is all that the body is.

So who are you? You are not all these functions. You will have to ask the question, “Who am I?” This is what we have come here to understand, and we have not done this at any time before. This question must be solved but we have postponed it. Everyone has postponed it for millions of years. We will not postpone this here. There is no method to practice. Simply find out, “Who am I?” This is not a method or practice or sadhana.

This can be done here and now – in this instant – because the Self is here. Enlightenment means to know thy Self – to know, “Who am I.” This is Enlightenment. This is Wisdom. This is Bliss. This is Existence. This is Being. This is Truth. This truth is not located at a distance – it is your own Self through which you are searching for truth and freedom. It is not any distance from here. It is within you, nearer than your own breath. It is behind the retina of your eyes, which you cannot see. You need not look outside. It is behind the retina; it is that through which the retina sees. You need no effort to see it.

When you still all activities, without doing anything, without thinking any thought – when you do not stir any thought from the mind ground, without moving, without moving the mind, without starting a single thought – in an instant of time you are free. When you give rise to any sadhana or practice, when you go to any center or ashram, when you go to any teacher or pilgrimage or church, when you make any prayer, you have postponed it. This you have done.

Be free of all these things right now. Because free you have been, free you are. You cannot achieve anything other than what you are. Anything gained afresh or achieved for the first time – anything which is new to you – you will certainly lose because it was not there at all. All that is natural to you is already there. Do not try to achieve anything or gain anything or attain anything which is not already there. This is not a fresh gain. People think, “At the end of this sadhana I am going to be free.” But it is not like that. You have been looking for something else, not freedom. Freedom is already here.

When you exert effort or practice sadhana you will camouflage and cover the truth. You will have to remove this covering because it is you who put it there. This covering will be removed through your effort. And when all efforts are done away with – when all attempts, all intents and intentions, all ideas and notions are rejected – at that time ask yourself, “Who am I?” You will certainly find the answer.

This is how freedom is already attained: You are already free. If you can hear this once from a teacher you are free. If you cannot hear this, then practice. If you can listen to a teacher who is not a liar, who is speaking the truth, and if you are honestly longing for freedom then listen once and you are free.

If you are not honest and if the teacher is not authentic it will not work. You will have to take up a practice if something is false somewhere. What is that practice? At all times, walking, sleeping, dreaming, on waking, while standing, sitting, lying, go on chanting the mantra. I can recommend mantras also, as a second best. If you can repeat this mantra from now till your last breath I guarantee you will not appear again in a next birth; you will not fall into any womb. What is the mantra? “I AM FREE!” Take up this practice if you do not believe me.

If you can listen, if you long for freedom, and you feel that I am honest when I tell you that you are free, then accept it! Hear this only once and you are free.

If you do not accept what I am saying then I will give you a practice as a second best. You will have to continue practicing on every breath – every breath of the waking state, of the dream state, of the sleeping state up to the last breath. Then I guarantee that you will not appear again in this miserable samsara.

To hear this once is enough. It is no problem to be free in this life. You have lived 8.4 million times as different kinds of species. This cycle has taken about 35 million years, and each of us has gone though many such cycles. So let us now decide not to return again.

Those who are here represent 6 billion people in the world today, without counting all the animals, birds, worms and germs. Out of 6 billion human beings there are very few of us here. Throughout the world they do not allow you to even utter the words, “I want to be free.” If you say, “I am free.” or “I am God.” you are put on a cross or stoned to death. Those few who have said, “I am Free.” have been stoned to death or crucified. I am happy that you have freedom of expression; you are lucky. You are born of a lucky family, of a lucky land that has allowed you to come to some other country and search for freedom. You are twice lucky. And I trust that all those who are here will not return home as they came. I am having good results. This is the first time in history. I see people every day come in front and say, “I am free. I am free.” They come from every country and see me saying, “I am in peace. I have seen peace. I am very happy!” They express it in many ways.

This has never happened before. In distant centuries people were performing tapas continuously for thousands of years, but we have very few examples of enlightenment – only a finger count. We have to go back thousands of years to find some sage or saint we can quote about freedom, like Jagnavalka, Vaishista or Buddha. But here I am very happy to see many buddhas appearing. Without sitting under any bodhi tree they are becoming buddhas. This is happening in this century because now we have no time to go to the mountains. The mountains are all polluted now. In Kashmir at 22,000 feet, armies are standing abreast with their weapons with intention of killing each other. How can you meditate between two armies?

It is best that wherever you find time, even in your own apartment – close your eyes and meditate. Search within yourself. There is no need to go anywhere because there is no peace anywhere. Everything is polluted – we cannot even have fresh air. The ocean is polluted, the rivers are polluted, mountains are polluted, the land is polluted, food is polluted. What is there to do about it? You cannot even do yoga. For yoga you need very sattvic food, which is not available. The human lifespan is becoming shorter so it is better to hurry up! No one has seen tomorrow.

Today is the best day. You can win freedom right now. I do not advise any practice. I do not tell you to practice even for one minute. Just now, this instant, one second, half a second, half of half a second is enough. Anytime today, but today – but now – you are free.

Simply listen to me. Simply have trust in what I say when I tell you that you are free. Do not doubt. If you need to doubt then you will need practice. It is your choice.

6 November, 1991


#41 The Greatest Secret to Happiness

Posted: October 12th, 2009 | Author: | Filed under: Life | 4 Comments »

Here you may ask, “Are not the experiences gained during the waking state, through the five senses, happiness?” Scrutinize more deeply. You should investigate with a keen attention each one of your pleasurable experiences as to what changes take place within you at that time.

Let us take an example.

Suppose you want to eat a sweetmeat; as soon as this thought arises in you, you start working to acquire all the necessary ingredients for making that sweetmeat. You prepare it and start eating it. Now, happiness is experienced. If you analyse how this happiness is obtained, that is, if you watch the feeling of happiness that rises within you while eating, you will find that the thought-waves which had risen out of the desire for the sweetmeat – “I want a sweetmeat” – and which had been raging so far cease.

Now the thought-waves cease, but only for a while; hence the happiness is also experienced only for a while. When the sweetmeat has been eaten, the thought-waves rise up again, and so the happiness disappears.

Some may argue : “A sweetmeat is sweet; that is why it gives happiness, and not because of the cessation of thoughts. The reason for the happiness is the sweetness in the sweetmeat”. But this is wrong; it is a conclusion lacking sufficient analysis. Let us see how.

The tongue, the organ of taste, can only discern which thing has what taste: sugarcandy is sweet, neem is bitter, tamarind is sour, salt is salty, and so on. But it is only the mind that decides likes and dislikes: “I want this taste and not that one”. Though a thing is bitter, if the mind wants it, it will derive happiness even in that bitterness.

Are there not some people who hate sweets and have a peculiar craving for bitter things? In the same manner are there not some who relish dried fish, while others will run miles to escape from the very smell of it? Moreover, though one is eating the tastiest and choicest dish in the world, one’s mind may be so engrossed at that time in some other thoughts that it is unable to create thoughts of desire for that tasty food, and consequently one is unable either to know its taste or to derive happiness from it.

Similarly, when the mind is centred elsewhere, one can eat even a tasteless dish without aversion. Further, when one is hungry and the desire for food is strong, one eats and happily relishes even the worst and most tasteless preparation.

What can we infer from all this?

It is not the taste but only the thought-waves of the mind, in the form of likes and dislikes, which account for one’s happiness and misery.

Thus,  if the thought-wave that rises  is one of dislike for a thing of a particular taste,  the removal of that thing will calm down the thought-wave and thus the mind will subside; hence happiness, which is your real nature, is then revealed.

If the thought-wave is one of a liking for a thing of a particular taste, when you get that thing the thought-wave will calm down and the mind will subside; hence here again happiness is revealed. Therefore, it will be clear to those who keenly observe that happiness is experienced only by quietening the thoughts which rise again and again.

It does not matter whether a thing is sweet or bitter. The rising of thought-waves in the form of likes and dislikes for things  alone is sorrow, and their subsidence alone is happiness; that is all!


The above is a snippet from the book, “The Path of Sri Ramana.”


I am amazed, my consciousness overbearing as I’m writing this right now.

Staying in the present, cessation of thought-waves, they’re the same after all.

Both stills the mind, and leads to genuine happiness.

All that we’re truly looking for in our whole lives.

We’ve just expounded upon a Truth billions of people who’ve died before us have never gotten the chance to learn.

Young or old, rich or poor, hopeful or hopeless, innumerable lives have gone by without ever been given the opportunity to know what you’ve just discovered… to know exactly how they can gain peace, comfort and bliss in their lives whenever they want.

So I make a request of you today, dear reader.

Share this knowledge with as many people as you can, and as far as you can deliver it.

For that’s the least we can do to give back.

Wisdom is passed on and refined until its core is discovered.

Without knowledge jotted down from the past, we won’t learn what we learn today.

Let us spark the spreading of this discovery, and allow the consciousness of mankind to continue going in the right way.

That we can learn the right thing.

And create more out of that same path towards wellbeing.

Thanks for reading.

#40 Who are You?

Posted: October 11th, 2009 | Author: | Filed under: Life | No Comments »
What's Real?

Who are You?

#39 A Huge Spiritual Discovery – If You Can See It

Posted: October 9th, 2009 | Author: | Filed under: Life | 2 Comments »

Conversation with ‘sage’ continues. If you could open your eyes to his main expression below, your life could change dramatically. But as the saying goes: “When the student is ready, the teacher will appear.” Learn what you can from his words, time will teach you the rest.

Like the last post, my email’s bolded. The rest are his words:


The fact is, if there are any expressions from me of life they would mainly be expressions of loathe & frustration.

I bear this, too.  There is just cause for it; you are not alone.

I have studied subjects on meditation, spiritual awakening, enlightenment, happiness, life – and almost every other kind of material wisdom out there. Because of my parents’ occupations, I was also born surrounded by various knowledge of the real world. However, I find it hard to seek the ultimate truth of life in either source.

And, possibly, neither might you find it via your parents.  You are speaking directly of the Mind here.  But there is hope, is there not?  There lives some over six billion people on this planet.  No need are we to invest our lot in merely two.  One’s parents — apart from their building us from scratch and introducing us to the world, enabling us with the means to take our first cracks at the world and accord us love — is to act as a foil to prompt and trigger causation this time round.  They are often our sand stones, our chisels, our polishers, making us at least reasonably fit to confront the outer world.  While we may be good to be born to family, there is no necessity for us to predecease our purposes here nor the reasons why we were born in the first place, or what you have framed as Destiny, which purpose is to facilitate still newer realities.

‘So you see why I say we must come to know ourselves?  Frustration has its place.  Make no mistake about that.  What displaces us is bearing too much or too little.

There’s no source which I’m willing to put my complete 100% trust in.

Oh but there is.  That ‘Source’ is you; you are that source.  We are each set in a Medium of sorts, an inconceivably intelligent, outrageously conscious medium, which is given the poetic names Spirit and God.  Ultimately, one eventually finds that one can subscribe to no religion, to no path but one’s own but rather, abide and respect others’ paths and spaces so that we may have ours.  For of theirs, one is best to assume that theirs is no less or more reflexive than one’s own.  By reflexive I mean a = a, which is a true statement, without condition. [these points are important and again, like another curiosity we touched on, are needing revisited]

Observe: Just go into any library touted as having some said pedigree or peruse any boutique book store or book chain, and if you look closely will you find numerous once patented doctrines, religions, and paths that could have been but never made it.  Many were no less solid than the ones that became known and successful and populistic.  Only are there comparatively scarce few that locked into the collective consciousness in each respective place and period as found extant then in the annals of humankind.

And so there is some force, some power that allows this, which is to say, Spirit uses what it has and does not force a thing or entity into being what is not presently accoutered with to presently handle, for this would defeat the whole purpose for which a soul has chosen to toil, of which interruption would avail no recourse but to start again.  What good would this do?  What economy evidences?  Economy is a Law unto itself, but not as we learn of midst the strike and strain on Wall Street, Madison Avenue, and Capitol Hill.  The Law of Economy is a high one indeed and is not to be trifled with.

Now, Spirit is like that of water: it seeks its own level and does make its way into whatever void or crevice that such voids avail.  It makes no distinctions but avails Itself of whomever and whatever avails himself or itself to It.  ‘The idea of — ‘use what you have’ hold true here.  The habit of collective consciousness, likewise, is likened to a void.  Since a soul’s first mission is to survive and to be free, it does what it can and must to achieve that state, nameless as that state may well be, in which it can be the most of what it can at the given moment in its present level of consciousness; now here, then as quickly gone again, now off to its next state.  And the only constant amid all this is the individual himself.  Oneself is the common thread; “so fine as to be invisible, yet so strong as to be unbreakable,” as once stated by the American writer Peddar Zaskq.

In 1922, the writer H.L. Mencken wrote a piece titled Funeral March.  In it he expounds queues of untold numbers of great and supposed religions and god paths, each of which came with its peculiar doctrine and immutable, infallible laws, its own constitution and dogma as given supposedly by God Itself for that time and place, which bore each its own hierarchy, having its varied minions and truth bearers.  And in each, its gods all were of the highest dignity, worshipped and believed in by millions.  All were held omnipotent, omniscient, omnipresent and immortal.  Mencken ends with saying, “And all are dead.”

You are correct not to entrust your most precious center to anything short of you.  We are soloists here.  Often we are given to believe that we have the company of others or many, but as one climbs, as one rises in consciousness, the comforts of the company of others does thin.  And in truth, that person’s own magnetic and energetic signature acts as, say, a shield, a divine indemnity which serves to protect that soul such that it can now be accorded greater light and sound without interrupton and can proceed along and on into the myriad pathways of Life’s great way.

There is simply not enough like you, you realize, is what will now have occurred.  A lonely path this is, you may be finding, at whatever station it is that you now have set and wherever you find yourself.  There is cause for anger and loathing.  And you will never quite hear what only you can and need to hear; for only you can trumpet that sound.

Because my instincts point in different directions.

We are seekers till we no longer are or need to be.  This takes time.  ‘May require thousands upon thousands of years but more accurately, millions…

Everything has an argument,

True.  ‘Everything of and by the mind.

and I stand in between all the time. The truth will weigh more, and thus put me on the heavier side of the scale. And I struggle and struggle in this, trying to know what is really the final truth, the final balance.

Because let’s face it, everything is possible, but yet not all things are true.

Yes, perhaps, maybe.  That which is true does speak only to possibility.  Might that you can become me or become God or anyone aside from yourself be possible?  Is knowing the truth to this within our reaches?  Well, we can at least say that we are in for a good ride upon the greatest of loops if we should dare to unravel the truth about this.  Will we have in hand one sure fire thing to hold to in this world given our human compass?  Truth and possibility depends one the lie and the impossible to be the truth.  Why, because truth cannot be mocked.  For every truth, there is a higher truth still; wherever it manifests and expresses in a world whose whole substrate is founded on duality is it subject to the laws of dichotomy, of uncertainty.  I will tell you this.  No two things can occupy the same space at the same time but Soul, which is an entity that is beyond anything Mind or Mind-like, beyond anything matter or matter-like or likewise, space-like or time-like.

I don’t want to be led by illusion. I don’t want to believe in something that is false. What’s the meaning in life living that way?

Here in this sphere there is no escaping illusion.  ‘Comes with the territory.

In the end, I seek genuine happiness.

This is good.  What we have ever to realize that in seeking this, we have as well to take what comes with it — its darker twin.

Not just mentally as well. I want to live it fully. Which means I could physically feel it. For mental/spiritual happiness doesn’t last long in the face of reality.

This is quite true, simply because happiness is but the obverse of darkness; a mercurial, volatile, material thing it is, subject to shift in a moment’s notice.  Happiness is one of the lower world’s snarling little puppies while here in the worlds of duality, ever wanting to be doted on and given attention.  We should yet say, one is a fool to seek darkness over happiness.  And let idealism come with equal portions of practicality.

I’ve experienced enough of it, you perhaps have too. We could change our perception and be happy, but that’s not an honest way.

Ah…that is it in a nutshell — “not an honest way.”

Problem is, there’s such a thing called destiny, God, intuition, higher source, purpose in life.

How are we to mix in everything in the right portion? Balance? It’s easy to say, but life doesn’t let you live with balance all the time.

Balance is easy to say, and even harder to achieve, is what you are contesting.  Here is why I said before that platitude has to get out of the way.  Balance is nothing that is set but in fact is a case of mitigating and governing ranges of motion; it is the negotiating of extremes, the mastery of which suggests a state of ever-readiness, of work — mean, fighting dog work — and amid highs and lows there evidences that state wherein one knows to lean not too heavily in any one direction over time, but rather to sustain with somewhat precision and centering, like that of a mercury thermometer.  We find that the mercury, or content, eddies to extremes, but the thermometer, or context, itself remains centered, steady; that is, it remains self-constituted as the thermometer and thereby fulfills the purpose for which it is designed to serve, which is to avail readings for the observer, which in this case is the Mind itself, while Soul, or the thermometer, is fundamentally Itself, which is to say, untouched, constituted.

Most of the time in fact. You go to work, you have much less balance in spiritual happiness. You don’t work, you falter in material prosperity. Either ways it’s meant to screw with our lives. And I have no confirmed directions on how to put it together, as I’ve said.

And that, my friend, is the whole of this thing mastery.  We are self-facilitating and made to be so whether we like this or no.  That is true for everyone.  And this is why I say that what helps offset this is to people yourself with those who can mitigate your extremes as these arise; and you, theirs.

Could one suggest to you certain techniques by which you can move through the ethers, travel back in time, perform certain feats, wield of great siddhis powers and all this sort of thing, well, the answer is yes, one could do this, but what is most important, miracles and the like notwithstanding, is for one to come to know oneself, and such things as these listed shall come in the by and by anyway.

So, that’s my current expression.