All writings herein serve to open up the world towards knowledge that matters, to piece together the greatest philosophies of living, and to expound ways towards
the path of freedom, happiness & choice.
(These articles when read slowly can give you a much, much clearer understanding of their message than if you were to just skim through the words. I hope you’ll find them entertaining. Please enjoy.)
No Separation
Years ago, there was lots and lots of vigilance in my life. Before and during spiritual seeking, I wasn’t badly suffering or in pain or unhappy with circumstances in life or stuck in dysfunctional patterns. Instead, I felt a deep sense of loneliness, alienation, lack of fulfillment, and a strong yearning from the heart and mind to know “What is it all about? What is the purpose of life? What happens after? What are all these mystical truths that are spoken of? Where is fulfillment to be found?” I was very vigilant about it.
Going back 30+ years, I tried many, many different paths, from Ayn Rand’s icy “Rational Selfishness” to the strictness and ecstasy of Born-Again Pentacostal Christianity. Years later, this all settled down to an intense inquiry.
For about 5 years, one question kept itself rooted in front of me. “What is the core of me?” I couldn’t help it – I’d ponder this in every spare moment the mind wasn’t engaged in something else. It was a sweet and relentless yearning. I really wanted to burrow into the deepest secrets of this. After a few years, the question refined itself. “What or where is this choosing, willing entity that seems to be in evidence?” “Is that the me?” “But where is it?”
The answer came one day while I was reading a book about consciousness. I was standing on the Grand Central subway platform during the evening rush hour, and the answer came. It didn’t come as a conceptual statement like “It is ABC.” Rather, it came by way of the world and the body imploding into a brilliant light, and the willing, phenomenal self thinning out, disappearing in a blaze of the same light. No separation was experienced; no time or space was experienced, yet I knew myself as the seeing itself. All “willings,” “desirings,” “thoughts” and other mentations were deeply experienced as spontaneous arisings in awareness, happening around no fixed point or location. And it wasn’t personal. Not only the entity “Greg,” but all apparent personal entities dissolved.
Out of nowhere, lightness, sweetness, brightness, and a fluidity of the world became qualities of everything, and became one with all experiences. My long-standing question had vanished along with what I had believed was “me.” There arose resiliency, joy, and an untouchable happiness.
This experience uncovered the realization that without the conceptual structures that make things seem real, there is no presumption of a separate center. There is no suffering and no basis for suffering. There is no feeling that things should be different than they are. This is a sense of peace far beyond what happens when we get what we dream about.
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Free Will and Freedom
The question of free will is from the perspective of the person. Does the person have free will? Many of the person’s actions are forced or determined by factors over which it has no control. Some of these actions are accompanied by the feeling of being lived, of being in the flow, in the “zone.” People often count these as the best times. But are at least some of the person’s decisions and actions freely chosen? To establish free will, as is discussed in Philosophy 101 classes everywhere, it is not necessary to show that every action is free. Even one free action would be sufficient.
Case 1:
“Will that be coffee or tea?”
“Hmmm, let me think…. I’ll have tea, thanks.”
Case 2:
(Thought bubble rising:) “I’d love to take a walk in the beautiful woods. I’d like to surround myself with peace and serenity and inquire into my true nature.” (Putting on hiking boots, opening the camper door and stepping out), “Here I go.”
From the perspective of the person, if the decision process is not analyzed, the actions and decisions in both cases above seem to be perfect examples of free will. Upon analysis however, a free action and a free chooser cannot be found. A thought comes, followed by a desire, followed by a decision, followed by an action. Tracing backwards, the action is controlled by the decision, the decision is controlled by the desire, the desire is prompted by the thought. The thought arises spontaneously, itself unbidden, un-asked-for, unchosen. First the thought is not there, then it is. Nowhere in this process can a free will be found. Nowhere can a freely-acting chooser be found.
It is even too much to say that the actions, decisions, desires and thoughts can control or prompt each other. These cause-and-effect dynamics are not even observed. Rather, they arise as inferences and conclusions about what happened, that is, they arise as thoughts that rise and fall.
In something like Case 1, the decision might even be accompanied by a small feeling of freedom, lightness, and spaciousness. And maybe also accompanied by a thought, “I’m choosing tea but I could freely choose coffee instead.” But the feeling of freedom and the thought “I could” also arise unbidden. That is, the feeling of freedom is not freely chosen.
The person is not the locus of freedom.
The person and the rest of the world cannot be found apart from the awareness in which all things appear. The person, the mind, body and world arise as thoughts, feelings, and sensations. These are nothing other than objects in awareness, and are nothing other than awareness itself. The person does not experience; the person is experienced. As awareness, we are That to which these objects appear. Thoughts, feelings, sensations – these objects arise from the background of silent awareness, they subsist in awareness, and they slip back into awareness. The awareness in which they appear is not itself an object but the background of all objects. It is our true nature. But the objects come and go unbidden, without autonomy. They are powerless and cannot do anything on their own. Objects cannot possess or contain freedom.
Is there freedom?
The silent awareness in which all objects appear is the true nature of all things. Awareness says YES to everything. Even if a NO arises, awareness says YES to the NO. Awareness is without resistance, without limits or edges, without refusal and without obstruction. Awareness is not free, it is freedom itself. What we truly are is not the person but this awareness, this freedom.
The person wants to co-opt this freedom, to own it, to behold it, to be present to use and enjoy it. But in spite of this desire from the perspective of the person, the person can never own That in which the person appears.
What about teachings that emphasize free will?
Entire religions and ethical systems are based on this idea. Ramana Maharshi told a questioner that all actions are determined except the ability to inquire into one’s true nature. Isn’t Case 2 above different from Case 1?
Sometimes teachings and exhortations about personal freedom are a beautiful, effective and necessary step for freedom from the idea of being a person. A person who prematurely adopts a “no-free-will” teaching can lapse into depression and antinomian behavior. “You have to be someone before you can be no one.” The teachings on free will borrow from the freedom that we are. Among the many objects that arise in the mirror of awareness, some objects arise as images of mirrors. These images are taken as representations of their source. Like a mirror appearing in a mirror, Ramana’s teaching serves as a pointer to freedom. Case 2 is not different in this respect from Case 1. As objects, all cases and their characters, and all teachings and all discourse (even this one!) are not themselves free or self-powered, but they arise from freedom and consist in freedom.
The person is never free.
As awareness, we are never bound.
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Physical Objects Disappear!
George Berkeley’s THREE DIALOGUES BETWEEN HYLAS AND PHILONOUS is a remarkable book. It is a short, well written set of dialogues, arguing in exemplary style that there can be no external physical objects which are somehow perceived by our sensory apparatus.
And over 20 years ago, it had the most amazing effect on the globality of my experience.
Who is Berkeley? You know that old philosophical question about the tree in the forest, would it make a sound if no one were there to hear it? He’s the guy in the 18th century who answered “No.” Berkeley argued tirelessly that there is no external physical substance. Our thoughts do not point to external objects like rocks and automobiles. Rocks and automobiles do not cause our thoughts.
When I was in grad school going for a philosophy doctorate, my teacher Colin Murray Turbayne was acknowledged as one of the world’s great Berkeley scholars. But to get a good grade in his class, you could never write anything against Berkeley. So we had to study Berkeley really carefully, because his ideas sounded so utterly unintuitive, crazy really. But after several months, they began to make sense.
One day after a lot of reading, Berkeley’s arguments crystalized, and it felt like a fog cleared from my mind. The feelings and convictions about supposed external objects vanished! The concepts of material substance and the attandant inside/outside distinction vanished. Nor were they necessary to explain our experiences. I was shaking with excitement, and not just because I thought I’d now get an “A” in Professor Turbayne’s class.
I went to Professor Turbayne’s office. He instantly saw that something was different. He looked questioningly at me, and I could only nod. He smiled and said, “Aha! Now go write about it!”
Since that time, over two decades years ago, the inside/outside disctinction has been useless to me. The notion of “material substance” has been just like the notion of “Santa Claus.” And amazingly enough, the dissolution of these notions has made it easier for me to interact in what is often called the physical world. Because I haven’t seen anything as physical for decades, there has been no fear factor. I learned to rollerblade and ride a bicycle with no brakes in the traffic-filled streets of New York City.
Perceptions that are usually called “physical” occur as a kind of language that has no inside or outside, where each concept refers to other concepts in a growing and consistent way. But there’s nothing Out There to which any of these ideas refer.
In my case, it was an excellent shake-up, like a mental Vege-matic blender, preparing me for non-dualist teachings.
George Berkeley’s THREE DIALOGUES BETWEEN HYLAS AND PHILONOUS is a remarkable book. It is a short, well written set of dialogues, arguing in exemplary style that there can be no external physical objects which are somehow perceived by our sensory apparatus.
And over 20 years ago, it had the most amazing effect on the globality of my experience.
Who is Berkeley? You know that old philosophical question about the tree in the forest, would it make a sound if no one were there to hear it? He’s the guy in the 18th century who answered “No.” Berkeley argued tirelessly that there is no external physical substance. Our thoughts do not point to external objects like rocks and automobiles. Rocks and automobiles do not cause our thoughts.
When I was in grad school going for a philosophy doctorate, my teacher Colin Murray Turbayne was acknowledged as one of the world’s great Berkeley scholars. But to get a good grade in his class, you could never write anything against Berkeley. So we had to study Berkeley really carefully, because his ideas sounded so utterly unintuitive, crazy really. But after several months, they began to make sense.
One day after a lot of reading, Berkeley’s arguments crystalized, and it felt like a fog cleared from my mind. The feelings and convictions about supposed external objects vanished! The concepts of material substance and the attandant inside/outside distinction vanished. Nor were they necessary to explain our experiences. I was shaking with excitement, and not just because I thought I’d now get an “A” in Professor Turbayne’s class.
I went to Professor Turbayne’s office. He instantly saw that something was different. He looked questioningly at me, and I could only nod. He smiled and said, “Aha! Now go write about it!”
Since that time, over two decades years ago, the inside/outside disctinction has been useless to me. The notion of “material substance” has been just like the notion of “Santa Claus.” And amazingly enough, the dissolution of these notions has made it easier for me to interact in what is often called the physical world. Because I haven’t seen anything as physical for decades, there has been no fear factor. I learned to rollerblade and ride a bicycle with no brakes in the traffic-filled streets of New York City.
Perceptions that are usually called “physical” occur as a kind of language that has no inside or outside, where each concept refers to other concepts in a growing and consistent way. But there’s nothing Out There to which any of these ideas refer.
In my case, it was an excellent shake-up, like a mental Vege-matic blender, preparing me for non-dualist teachings.
“Words are what we do to keep the mind busy while the transmission happens in the silence.”
And it makes sense, because recent scientific researches have shown us that the human brain sends out electrical impulses (to form actions) even before the intellectual mind decides to do so.
That as we commit to an action, the process actually seems something more like this:
Brain sends nerve impulses for action.
Mind follows up thinking it was the source.
Brain sends nerve impulses for action.
Mind follows up thinking it was the source.
Brain sends nerve impulses for action.
Mind follows up thinking it was the source.
Now the question then becomes – if everything just happens, as is, even despite the control of the mind…
Then what is individual free will really?
I can only smile at the thought.
Because the answer, the real answer in the end, is truly positive & empowering.
If the world was created out of something, created by the one we refer to as God, Consciousness, the Creator who’s naturally perceived as perfect in every way, would the world in itself be a perfect creation?
I stumbled upon this question because of a conversation I had with a friend.
We came from devout Christian backgrounds, and so we’re innately interested in the concept of God.
But because of our curiosity, we had also questioned the truth behind this almighty religious figure.
What we really didn’t understand, with our logical minds, is -
“Why would our God who is supposed to be perfect in every way, and the most loving amongst all that ever exists according to the bible (he knows everything, is everywhere, has all the power) sometimes act in ways that are less than what a human is capable of?”
From what I learned, people who worship him goes to heaven, and others to the place where they are punished with the worst of punishments for eternity.
Why would a God who has so much love do that to anyone at all?
Why would this God who knows everything (omniscient), created sin for us to commit, and then decides to punish us – for eternity, because of what He has done?
The same goes for the God as referred to by Islams.
I don’t mean any offense for anyone’s beliefs in this post.
That is not my intention at all.
On the other hand, what I really mean to do is bring forth a logical argument that we can ponder over, especially if it could bring more love, peace & happiness into our lives.
As a human, if I were God – I would know that everything acts and exists in the way it is because It Is.
Because I have made it that way, and that is why it exists the way it does.
Now, I’m not saying that I could ever understand things the way God does.
But with the mind that he has granted me, with the consciousness he’d allowed me to have, with the intelligence that he has filled my mind with – it just doesn’t make sense to me why the God as described in doctrinal religions can ever be accounted as the one who is perfect in every way or the most loving of all.
Eventually, I could only arrive at this understanding right now:
That everything in this world is perfect.
See my friend brought up a good point the other day when we were talking.
He said, consider all the things that exists within the Universe.
With its wonder, beauty, amazement – it is only logical that the God who created them is beyond their qualities.
We casually talked about how, if the planets surrounding the sun would have just slipped and gone off its course, disasters would happen.
But they didn’t.
The earth has rotated around the sun for millions of years without ever leaving the track.
With this understanding, we could only deduce that since perfection exists within his creation, the Creator himself must be beyond Perfect – and as such would most likely create existences which are nothing less than perfect in themselves.
If you would, think about this:
Without sadness, would we have appreciated happiness?
Without things that chain our expressions, would we have yearned freedom?
Without the poor, would we have specifically desired to be rich?
It is as if everything that has ever existed was created because they were made to complement each other!
It was as if, everything was made to be perfect since the beginning of time.
I thought about the many people who could offer unconditional love irregardless of what they are faced with.
And then I thought about the God as described by Christianity & Islam.
I couldn’t accept that my God could be less loving than I can be e.g. in the context of heaven and its counterpart – and that is why I’ve decided to put them aside on my path towards happiness.
So we have talked about two religions.
Now what about Buddhism or Hinduism?
First, I have to clarify what I’m referring to as Buddhism and Hinduism:
For me, any religions with statues of worship is disregarded.
But that’s only because I believe that God is above them all (and could just be All) and defining this figure would be like putting a limitation on the Creator.
What many people don’t know is that Buddhism and Hinduism has several (perhaps just two) sides to them.
One is idol worship.
Another side advocates the teaching of Oneness.
What Oneness implies is that everything that exists in this world is actually One and the same.
This means, even as you’re reading these texts out of your computer, you are still the computer and the computer is still you (denoting your true nature, not your character).
So is everything else which ever exists.
The way this can be understood is not by literally taking the words I’ve said above with a logical mind. You would have to understand them from a spiritual sense, following what’s described below.
Another direction which both these religions similarly point to is the concept of Consciousness.
How you could put Oneness and Consciousness together is perhaps by seeing the world in this way:
Everything is actually a play in motion happening at once, only being observed by Consciousness (which is referred to as God).
So even though we are two different individuals, you and I – we are in this context the same Consciousness, only being separated by some condition(s) in the play of Life.
In this case, one can assume that one is simply a character that lives, moves and thinks irregardless of one’s true Self, and that the Self is actually just God -
Observing.
In this case, the world can be considered perfect in every way.
Even though the character we assume as our Self experiences pains, peace, sufferings, happines or anything, it was actually already meant to be.
The world was created to function in the perfect way (according to God, not our minds) that it is.
As God, you’re really just observing how everything Is.
Of course, not everyone will understand this post at first glance.
Not even I fully understand what I just wrote.
All I know is that I’ve thought about this – and everything I wrote would be how I’d piece the picture of Life together right now if the concept of the Creator, God or Consciousness truly exists.
May this post be informative to you in any way.
Thanks for reading.
P.S. If you want to entertain yourself with questions, here’s one you can have fun with sometimes:
Ask yourself, “Where do ‘my’ thoughts come from?”
Some people will answer, “My mind, my brain, my _____ etc.”
Of course, those answers are mostly correct – when thought upon from the individual/character’s perspective.
But what if you are consciousness itself, only ever observing (or perhaps, maybe, sometimes, influence what thoughts would come up) the character which is called [your name] separately from all other beings that exists?
It’s interesting, huh?
For me, the answer then becomes: “Thoughts aren’t really ‘mine’ per se, but arises out of a field which exists to fulfill that which has always been made to happen.”
You’re rushing for work, you’re out of your door, you forgot your car keys.
Hm… why does the thought that you forgot your car keys appear now, and not before?
Did you, [your name], came up with the plan so it happens that way?
Are your thoughts ‘yours’ (the character’s), or are your thoughts out of someone else’s arrangements in perfect synchronicity?
Of course, this question is posed just for fun purposes.
I myself can’t really believe what a year can do to change a person.
A year ago, I had great ambition, only with a closed mind.
A year later, I have great ambition, only with a conscious mind.
And that by itself, is actually supposed to be a HUGE change.
I guess this is what spirituality is all about.
It’s about a journey, a series of experiences that changes a person in the way he/she sees the world.
And it isn’t so much about changing your mind, really.
It’s more about changing who you are, and as a result what you do.
As who you are changes, despite things staying exactly the same way as they were, they are now entirely different.
A metaphore that I could come up with right now is:
It’s as if in the past, life is like a very aggressive river gushing you along its stream as it sometimes drown you within itself.
However, now – as a wholly grown person, even though the river carries the same characteristics, your mind, body & soul has functioned in a way that’s much more different than before, that despite being put in the same situation, you are able to remain in control of where & how the stream will float you.
Previously, I thought living a certain ‘way’ of life could make one become happier.
Or that, a certain ‘way’ of life is wrong, and another right.
But what life forced me to understand was that, the path to happiness is actually not a single path, but a combination of ALL paths as one – that if someone were to be truly enlightened, what he/she has to do is understand and see all of the paths in life, accept all of them as a part of each other, and then decide to live the unique life which is meant for him/her through conscious decisions which are made from him/herself as much as it is possible all of the time.
The tiny little joke here is -
The world will stay the same as it has always been.
But it will just never be the same again.
In the past, the earth may appear to be this dark character always throwing pains, sufferings & torture your way, causing your life to be miserable, never showing you light in the worst of situations.
In the present moment however, with the understanding of how life works and the exercising of this knowledge from within, it may appear more like a nurturing mother perhaps, bright and cheery, always making sure that you are taken care of on your journey towards growth as a human being, rewarding you for your actions as they make her proud.
I guess you might have deduced the key to this message by now.
Because it’s really all about living the same life – only with down to earth consciousness this time around, with power solely belonging to you, with decisions clearly made from within you, and with you knowing what to do in times of trouble (and doing it) because of what you learned from all your painful experiences in the past.
Living with a certain sense of Selfishness, but without the negative side of selfishness, because who you are inside is clear, clarified & wise.
Another thing I learned was:
When life becomes plain, flat or completely depressing, you could always decide on two things to do:
Do nothing, or give yourself some distractions.
Distraction carries with it no negative side, if you consciously choose to be distracted.
Which in this case – can be described as just directing your attention from what’s bad to good.
It could be something like coming up with a big picture of how you want your life to be, and then working yourself towards it.
Any activity that could keep you occupied, and benefit you in terms of something new to learn, a skill to be sharpened, some small fun to be gained, etc.
Or something as simple as looking forward to attending a party or event tomorrow, on the weekends, few more days, preparing yourself for it (shopping maybe?) and so on.
If not, doing nothing until time passes and sends something your way works fine too (just not as good perhaps, when you’re in a bad state).
You could always keep yourself in a state of power and get something out of it, if you’re conscious.
You can always make the world work in favor of you.
Combine everything you have, know or can do, work them in a conscious way that is unique to you, and I believe that you would have retrieved your rights to the ultimate secret of life, to become happy, to live without regrets.
I hope this piece of article has been of value to you.
How many times in life have we kept ourselves troubled with petty matters that could be brushed off if we wanted?
I won’t describe specifically what ‘petty’ means in this context, because it really depends on where you perceive life from.
If your eyes are shrouded by the waves of life, chances are you could be peeved with the smallest of problems – e.g. allowing negative emotions to take over you for not seeing others act exactly the way you want them to, not having what you want exactly according to your expectations, or not experiencing what you want exactly according to your taste, and etc.
On the other hand, if your eyes are cleared by the waves of life, and you could see life as it really Is – chances are you could live life in a way that no matter what happens, you’ll still be grateful, content or at peace.
It’s not an easy choice to pick between those two circumstances, mind you.
If it is, all of us would have been picked the path of happiness.
But the fact remains that within each human lies this thing called Ego.
What we could safely refer to as the mind, with its own soul.
Now ego has an offer most of us couldn’t resist.
It is a master of preference, who has the ability to give us stories that highly entertain us (with factors usually created by two sides of the extreme, e.g. empowering pleasure/excruciating pain, extreme excitement/depressing apathy, immense satisfaction/raging dislike & etc.) for as long as we choose to feed it with power.
The only down side is – it’s like making a deal with the devil (watched the movie “The Imaginarium of Dr. Parnassus”?).
With every pact he makes with you, you are sure to give him more.
He never loses.
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What then should we do?
How should we live life in this case?
In the end, which is the way that can fulfill us the most?
The most honest answer I can give you is:
I don’t really know.
But here’s my observation -
Those I know who are most genuinely happy in this world are the ones who are generally more conscious of what truly matters in life.
And the higher they view life from, the lesser problems of all kinds bother them.
After all, human lives, when seen from the edges of the Universe, are but existences that could be easily dismissed.
For descriptive purposes, I think this video can show you a more vivid imagery of the above statement.
What could be the greatest spiritual achievement one can attain in life?
What is the ultimate lesson that we’re supposed to grasp?
What is the way to ‘spiritual enlightenment’?
Just yesterday, despite having studied and knowing so much about spirituality – life still poses itself as a great challenge for me to keep in balance with.
Despite pulling myself back to the present moment (where problems are supposed to be non-existent), my mind managed to keep pulling my thoughts back & forth into the past & future.
That by itself, being affected strongly by the mind, being pulled by it to the direction it wants – was the single most distracting challenge I had to face to ease my life for the better.
So what happened was, I had dinner with a very intelligent friend last night. Only a few weeks ago, I was the one sharing my knowledge on the topic of truth. But yesterday, he had already attained so much more understanding of the nature of consciousness & mind – that I was the one listening.
The idea is simple:
You see, the mind’s nature when uncontrolled causes insanity.
Imagine having a really advanced computer. When it works in the way you favor, you benefit from its many, many functions. However as a virus, for example infects it, what usually happens is it causes you to be frustrated, it may cause you to lose many important things you needed, it may even cause you to go ‘crazy’.
What we don’t pay attention to is how we identify ourselves as the computer, but not as the one controlling it most of the times.
If we refer to this example from the context comparing the computer to mind, and the one in control consciousness – this could all be very clear.
It may take you some time to realize the fact, but what I’ve come to clearly observe is the mind is not you, me, or anyone.
If you want to observe how true this is, consider meditation.
And a very simple one would do.
A practice I’m contemplating doing every single day now, is to count from 1 – 100 with one breath each count.
While meditating, do your best to focus only on your breath & count.
Only on your conscious breath & count, nothing else.
What you would probably realize is how easily the mind would interrupt your concentration with thoughts, imaginations & stories that has completely no factual value in nature.
In short, the mind has a soul of its own.
BUT – this is the key:
It has a soul of its own with only the power that you give it.
Direct your conscious attention away from those illusionary thoughts that are either in the past or future, and they lose their control over you.
Chances are, you don’t need their control over you in the first place.
Because, why would you need to involve your real life in a fairy tale that is never true?
Unless it IS, meaning it is already happening in the here and now, from your clear observance of the present moment – what your mind thinks could most very well be irrelevant to your life because it’ll pose as just distractions to your happiness.
What I learned most from my friend here is:
There really is only consciousness and the Is-ness of the world. You never had to give any power to any moment other than the now, because it is all there is – all that is true. The past is already unalterable, the future as depicted in your mind is neither the absolute truth.
When you have a negative thought about anything at all, what’s really happening is you’re giving power to the thought to control you.
In that sense, you have lost everything that should be yours in the first place.
Actually, the only thing that is yours.
Consciousness.
Give power to no negative thoughts.
Give power to your real Self, and direct your choices towards the thoughts in which you consider their advancement.
There are some things you can never control, and there are some things that you can always control.
For example, the past and future – and now.
But no matter how life’s Is-ness turns out, know that you always have a choice to gain something from it.
You always have a choice to move forward in another direction.
You knew all along what you should do.
Now observe everything.
And use yourchoice in the way that brings you the most happiness.
I always thought that David Icke was just a conspiracy writer.
That he was somehow, too involved, in the surface illusionary world – speaking only about the Illuminatis, the evils behind political scenes, strange extra-terrestrials and etc.
Little did I know, I had made a wrong mistake of believing in what my mind says withoutseeing into the truth of it all.
Sure what he had written in his books may sometimes sound far-fetched.
But after watching this interview he had with Project Camelot, now I thought: “What if he was merely just trying to depict what’s really going on under the surface of the world, and we are paying too much focus to the facades playing before our eyes – we see pass the background interactions behind them all?”
I appreciated this interview mainly because he’d explained a lot about why he’s doing what he’s doing, and how it all relates to consciousness/mind in the end.
It got me thinking.
If I had for so long held a wrong perception about something – just because I believed in an illusion my mind held instead of seeing things for what it really Is, how many more similar mistakes have I done in the past?
Our minds, or egos, sure could keep our eyes closed.
But of course, it all doesn’t matter now.
Because what matters isn’t the past, or the future, but only this present moment Now.
So for whatever it’s worth, if you’re reading this my dear reader, I greatly wish that you don’t commit this same mistake I had done.
Life could be filled with so much more happiness, liberation, fulfillment, peace & satisfaction if you could live genuinely, with the truths that your heart insists upon.
Let not the conditioning of others cover the inner voice you had since you were born, as a child, pure & naked without the ideas, concepts and limitations put on you by the external world.
If you have around 2 hours of free time, I would highly recommend that you watch this interview David had done with Project Camelot. I have learned a lot from it. And would sincerely hope that you can benefit from it as well:
Remember Project Camelot? I’ve mentioned it in the previous blog posts. Basically it’s a project started by Bill Ryan & Kerry Cassidy to interview people of knowledge about topics relating to extra-terrestrials, spirituality, secret governmental projects etc. and share these valuable information with the world.
In this video, Bill Ryan was actually interviewed for his views about the current world, right now.
Information revealed includes:
Bill’s perception of life & human’s true identity, his personal life story
How to discover your purpose in life, know what you are here to do
Story of an Illuminati who could put his hands in and out of the wall like magic at a party
Psychic doctors, ‘John of God’, miracle healings
What’s probably going to happen in 2012 (what has 2019 got to do with it?)
Indigo children – specially aware & gifted children, why are they here in droves
The international disclosure of ETs – what’s happening right now
A message of hope for the conscious
And so much more
All I can say is I hope it’d serve you in some way. Thanks for reading. Please enjoy:
It was the most scientific/seemingly logical book I’ve read that links everything about human creation, theology & history closely together.
Today, I just finished it.
Suffice to say, I’m ending my search for the future. I find no meaning anymore in trying to know more about 2012, ascension/apocalypse, or what predictions people have. Because in the end, only the occurence of the event itself would tell us what’s real.
I’ve been on a journey, a long journey. It involved me looking through my life, contemplating reasons for our existence, seeking out who we really are. In the end though, the conclusion smacked me in the face with a notion – life will still remain a mystery.
It had been so for so many years.
How would it change when the amount of factual information we have remains limited?
I had held this believe so long that if we constantly seek spiritual guidance, that we’ll be shown to it.
In the end, I was shown nothing.
My feelings after reading the book summed it all for me.
It actually talked about 2012 – what I have learned from it is that the Mayan calendar did denote its end of cycle. However, it was a result of its insufficiency of mathematical/technological resources to continue. Ultimately, what lies in 2012?
It still remains a mystery.
Zecharia Sitchin, after years of translating archaeological artifacts, theological texts and different sorts of calculations, pieced together an ending within the book that gave us different dates of when the ‘the end of times’ could happen. But most of the dates lie in years after 2060. A question that arose within me was: will it be worth it to believe in something that would take a lifetime of patience to materialize?
It would be better to just live life, and make the best of it while we’re still alive – if that’s the case.
Of course, as I’ve mentioned, this all remains a mystery.
Until it happens, there really is no reason to spend so much time in its contemplation.
What is there to search in life?
What are we really looking to achieve in the world?
Why are we here?
Until it all ends, we probably wouldn’t get a definite clue would we?
Until the time comes, we could only live normally while staying in constant wonder.
This post shall be a casual expression.
In the past 2 weeks, I’ve really been thinking a lot about what Life is, where truths lie, and how happiness can really be attained.
I’ve ventured into many information sources, videos, audios & texts alike, from all kinds of different subjects – science, politics, religions, etc. and guess where I fall now?
Right where I was, perhaps only calmer inside.
I thought pushing harder & harder into unveiling the mysteries of life would get me someplace different, but I was probably wrong.
I’ve got a bigger picture of life, that’s for sure.
I know a hell lot more than most of the population in the world today about who we are, who God is, what is the reality beneath the surface we’re surrounded with everyday…
But all this knowledge only pushed me into a corner with 1 understanding:
That I can’t judge anything at all.
We could act as if we are right. We could demand things to be our way, thinking that it’s the way things should be. We could have others think our way is the way – but in the end…
It would all mean nothing.
You get it? Because it’s all based on nothing at all. We’re going on and on about things that not only make us suffer, but make others suffer too for reasons that are purely illusional. We infringe on others’ thoughts, we infringe on people’s free will. The sum of our actions are mostly shallow when viewed from a higher vantage point, because hey, we could experience Life in a much better way.
I mean, instead of holding so tight to what we’ve been conditioned, we could break free from the illusionary reality, make choices out of our own selves, and decide to receive what we deserve.
I’m talking about a Life filled with unconditional love, happiness & meaning.
This can all be achieved so easily, if we could decide for once, to stop letting others condition us and make decisions for us – and begin taking choices that serve the presence that speaks so loudly from our hearts (it could be something as easy as being loving to everyone) while we go through each day.
I learned that everything that exists in this world is part of God, and is God.
If we could realize this together, and aim to fulfill the purpose of our presence on earth, a new world is inevitable.
As I learned from David Wilcock (http://www.divinecosmos.com), this will happen anyway. I can’t say this will be exactly right, but I sort of adopt this belief. According to him, we human beings who’re living in the 3rd dimension will go on to the 4th in the near future – possibly in 2012. When we do, David describes a world that is separated from the past, a new world will emerge, where unconditional love is shared amongst all, and people will have lives that are absolutely joyful & satisfying.
Until then, I guess my way of thinking now is just to surrender all my problems to the almighty God. Trusting that everything will be taken care of. At the same time, I’m being grateful for every good thing that happens in my life.
When things aggravate me, frustrate me, anger me, I learn to remember that I should not infringe on anyone’s free will.
That means I will always manage myself the best I can, and allow others to learn their lessons & live their lives accordingly.
I will do my best to never react based on a negative attitude in return, as doing so means I’m being controlled & if I retaliate I’d infringe on their free will somehow.
So what I’d do is stay in the present, and offer to make people feel better, but would never push things when it isn’t my right to do so.
Because they are God too.
And they’ve got their own purposes to accomplish being here.
That’s all the expression I’ve got for now.
Till the next post.
P.S. I just got back from travelling in Indonesia (Jakarta, Bandung) in the past 10 days. This is a country where the rich and poor are clearly separated apart. During my stay here, I learned a lot more about reality, love & respect. I would certainly recommend it to people who seek good food, beautiful views, wide smiles, cheap everything, and a life lesson on their next vacation.
Project Camelot apparently held a sort of group discussion on the future of mankind with three people who knew much of what the general public wasn’t informed of.
Included are topics about secret governmental projects, teleportation (you enter a gate in a base under Las Vegas, you arrive at Australia – passport shown here), messages of hope, and more.
It’s just beautiful, how this all comes together.
Because I agree, as they say, that the revelation of secrets can bring a sort of raising in consciousness within us.
I can only hope to serve you in the same way, by letting you know more of what’s truly going on in reality, behind the surface illusion.
That’s all for now.
Thank you for reading, and I hope you’ll enjoy this group conversation:
P.S. For additional entertainment purposes, I’m posting a video here which shows proofs (photos, shared experiences from intelligent people i.e. Engineers, Air Force Officers & White House Politicians, researches done by experts & etc) supporting the existence of extra-terrestrials.
I stumbled on an interview done by Project Camelot with Dr. Pete Peterson a couple of hours ago.
In summary, this video reveals much of what truly happens behind the financial, political & paranormal scenes of our current world right now.
I want you to take note that Dr. Pete Peterson here is a PhD. in Philosophical Science – an intelligent & scientific man, who has invented numerous highly-technological devices, worked with multiple secret governmental agencies, and is connected with many insiders who move around the White House, people who has information that only the most influential does.
And in this interview, he’d shared quite a lot of what he knew.
Included in the video is information about:
The economic downfall that’s inevitably going to happen in the near future (2010)
Survivability precautions that could be taken
Why the government has partially funded the recent few apocalyptic movies
What shocked President Barack Obama the most on his 1st presidential briefing
Which Presidents were silenced from revealing information about extra-terrestrials
What happened to Presidential authorities after George Washington (hint: they’re not that powerful after all)
And much, much more
What would knock on our doors in these close coming years?
I can’t really tell yet. The best I can do now is just to continue sharing information I find reliable here, and hope you’ll benefit as a result. In the meantime, I look forward to receiving greater guidance.
Anything that vibrates is an Illusion of Separation within Oneness. Oneness free from Illusion is the state of total balance and stillness. Once Oneness vibrates, it becomes an Expression of its own Self, unique in its own right within the Illusion of Separation but at the same time encompassing all of Oneness in its entirety.
The Separation perceived by an Expression of Oneness (and all that vibrates is an Expression of Oneness) only exists in Illusion, since energy that vibrates creates a parabolic oscillation of the One energy. This oscillation of energy is what creates the Illusion of Polarity/Duality (meaning, we can never be free from opposing forces unless we stop vibrating!), which in turn manifests into the Illusion of Karma, which in turn manifests into the Illusion of Motion, which in turn manifests into the Illusion of Time. It is from the Illusion of Time manifested by the Illusion of Separation (“Space”) within Oneness where we get the Illusion of the Unknown. Once an Expression of Oneness believes in the “reality” of the Unknown, it loses its awareness of its Self being Oneness, and that it is detached not only from Oneness but also from other Expressions of Oneness. This “densest” level of the Illusion of Separation is what we are experiencing now — Oneness forgetting it is Oneness, so to speak, within the Space/Time Illusion. When one perceives one’s self as a separate entity from All, it begins to Fear the Unknown, since it cannot perceive beyond its own limited physical senses. This Fear of the Unknown leads to Attachment to the Illusion of Separation, since the Illusion is all that the individual can perceive as “known”. Attachment to the Illusion of Separation is what causes the Illusion of Suffering. The Space/Time loop of “history repeating itself” is in fact our subconscious choice of revisiting instances and events where we have yet to realize that our self-induced Suffering is caused by our Attachment to the Illusion of Separation.
Any form of suffering that repeats itself, from war to abusive relationships, is caused by Attachment. Our Attachment to the Illusions of vanity, old age, weight gain, selfish love, possessions, fame, money, power, materialism, etc., is the source of our self-induced and self-perpetuating experiences of Suffering. Therefore, there is no way one can end Suffering unless one lets go of the Illusion of Separation. Letting go is the greatest challenge for an Expression of Oneness, because our Fear of the Unknown has made us latch onto anything that we “know” is certain… like money, our looks, power, fame and materialism. Ultimately, it will be our Egos — which thrive within the Illusion of Separation — that will stand in our way to fully realizing Oneness. When we turn around and face our fears, what we will see is a reflection of our Selves. All the suffering we see around us — and in fact all the people, places and instances we perceive around us — are reflections of our hopes, loves, desires and fears.
To begin to break free from the Illusion of Suffering is to realize that no matter how we try to change our reflection (ie., trying to change or impose our will or beliefs upon others), we can never change anything unless we change our Self. Letting go of our own Selves is the final frontier for an Expression of Oneness to finally realize Oneness free from Illusion. Until that time comes, we will all continue to partake in the Illusion of Separation for what its worth, make the most of the lives we so choose to live, and live them how we wish to live them according our beliefs and perceptions of Self in relation to All. Whether we choose to see the true Oneness beyond the Veil of Forgetfulness, and live in accordance to our realization and understanding what All Is One, is entirely up to us.
To learn more about Brian Sanchez – kindly visit www.AllIsOne.org.
*Amazing article, isn’t it?
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Just got back from watching a movie at a mega mall. It’s called “The Fourth Kind.” And I felt hysterical on my drive home because there is so much real information we don’t know that’s revealed in it.
It’s like these things have been put out in the open before our eyes all these while – we just somehow, didn’t pay attention to them.
I for one, am excited because who knows what these little pieces of truths will cause in the world.
Will they raise our consciousness? Will they take us out of our conditioned minds & lead us to see things as they are, from within, from our own Selves? Will they give us the courage to break free from ‘the usual grind,’ allowing us to take actions that matter – to work towards a much more open, liberating, greater, happier, expressively loving future for all?
It’s all just way too interesting.
This play of life, this game, this whole world.
I’m really looking forward to seeing the kind of wellbeing we can create together in the future.
P.S. Okay now, I have to say this is a really scary movie. I’m writing this from the standpoint of an ‘open-minded adult’ . If you’re planning to watch it, have a group of people preferably friends to watch it together so you can have a laugh or two about it afterwards (yeah btw, I’ve read review sites which said that skepticism kills the movie – and I think that could happen. I enjoyed it nonetheless, by simply being observant).
The movie’s about alien abduction. And the aliens certainly weren’t friendly – but remember, we should unconditionally love them regardless. I really adore Milla Jovovich (she played the main actress), her movie “The Fifth Element” with Bruce Willis is both funny & entertaining.
What is Project Camelot, and who is David Wilcock?
Well long story short, Project Camelot interviews people who know what we don’t know.
ETs, UFOs, advanced technologies not from earth, hidden civilization secrets, covert governmental projects etc.
David Wilcock is said to be the best of researchers in this field.
Regardless of whether you believe in these things, I recommend listening to what David says about 2012 in this video.
A lot of times, people’s eyes, speech tone & body language reveals a lot about whether they’re telling the truth or not.
I’m posting this here, so you can decide for yourself.
Thank you.
P.S. In summary, what David says in this video is: In 2012, people will change. Apparently the magnetic fields will affect our human construct, and our perception about the entire world will not be the same – hence, “the end of times” as predicted by the Mayans. It’s like a countdown now, only around 3 more years to the epic show.
P.P.S. This video is part 3 of a 4-part interview series. If you’re interested to know more, please feel free to click on the video – you’ll be directed to YouTube. At the “Related Videos” sidebar there, you’d get access to the other parts.
It’s time to define the new era. Our faith has been shaken. We’ve lost confidence in our leaders and in our institutions. Our beliefs have been tested. We’ve discredited the notion that the Internet would change everything (and the stock market would buy us an exit strategy from the grind). Our expectations have been dashed. We’ve abandoned the idea that work should be a 24-hour-
a-day rush and that careers should be a wild adventure. Yet we’re still
holding on.
We’re seduced by the idea that picking up the pieces and simply tweaking the formula will get the party started again. In spite of our best thinking and most searing experience, our ideas about growth and success are mired in a boom-bust mentality. Just as we traded in the pinstripes and monster bonuses of the Wall Street era for T-shirts and a piece of the action during the startup revolution, we’re waiting to latch on to the new trappings of success. (I understand the inclination. I’ve surfed from one boom to the next for most of my working life — from my early days as a bond trader to my most recent career as a writer tracking the migration of my generation from Wall Street to Silicon Valley.)
There’s a way out. Instead of focusing on what’s next , let’s get back to what’s first . The previous era of business was defined by the question, Where’s the opportunity? I’m convinced that business success in the future starts with the question, “What should I do with my life?” Yes, that’s right. The most obvious and universal question on our plates as human beings is the most urgent and pragmatic approach to sustainable success in our organizations. People don’t succeed by migrating to a “hot” industry (one word: dotcom) or by adopting a particular career-guiding mantra (remember “horizontal careers”?). They thrive by focusing on the question of who they really are — and connecting that to work that they truly love (and, in so doing, unleashing a productive and creative power that they never imagined). Companies don’t grow because they represent a particular sector or adopt the latest management approach. They win because they engage the hearts and minds of individuals who are dedicated to answering that life question.
This is not a new idea. But it may be the most powerfully pressing one ever to be disrespected by the corporate world. There are far too many smart, educated, talented people operating at quarter speed, unsure of their place in the world, contributing far too little to the productive engine of modern civilization. There are far too many people who look like they have their act together but have yet to make an impact. You know who you are. It comes down to a simple gut check: You either love what you do or you don’t. Period.
Those who are lit by that passion are the object of envy among their peers and the subject of intense curiosity. They are the source of good ideas. They make the extra effort. They demonstrate the commitment. They are the ones who, day by day, will rescue this drifting ship. And they will be rewarded. With money, sure, and responsibility, undoubtedly. But with something even better too: the kind of satisfaction that comes with knowing your place in the world. We are sitting on a huge potential boom in productivity — if we could just get the square pegs out of the round holes.
Of course, addressing the question, What should I do with my life? isn’t just a productivity issue: It’s a moral imperative. It’s how we hold ourselves accountable to the opportunity we’re given. Most of us are blessed with the ultimate privilege: We get to be true to our individual nature. Our economy is so vast that we don’t have to grind it out forever at jobs we hate. For the most part, we get to choose. That choice isn’t about a career search so much as an identity quest. Asking The Question aspires to end the conflict between who you are and what you do. There is nothing more brave than filtering out the chatter that tells you to be someone you’re not. There is nothing more genuine than breaking away from the chorus to learn the sound of your own voice. Asking The Question is nothing short of an act of courage: It requires a level of commitment and clarity that is almost foreign to our working lives.
During the past two years, I have listened to the life stories of more than 900 people who have dared to be honest with themselves. Of those, I chose 70 to spend considerable time with in order to learn how they did it. Complete strangers opened their lives and their homes to me. I slept on their couches. We went running together. They cried in my arms. We traded secrets. I met their families. I went to one’s wedding. I witnessed many critical turning points.
Q: Today is Ramana’s birthday. I’d like to ask you to say something about Ramana.
Papaji: This is a long story so I will tell you in a short version about my contact with him, and something of what came before also.
Ramana was the son of a lawyer. He was studying in a mission school. In his boyhood, one day he was going to school on the day when the fees were due. He had taken money and was going to school to pay his fees. On the way he felt as though he were dying. He lay down on the road on the way to and began to inquire: ‘”Who is dead? Who is dead? The body is lying here, but I see I am not dead. This body is dead and I am conscious that I am not dead.” This was his experience. He found the Eternal Consciousness which never dies. The body may die, like clothes. Worn out clothes are thrown away and you get new ones to be worn again.
It started like this, but then he wanted to find out what it was. There was nobody to speak to him. After this experience he wanted to see what this experience was. He disappeared from the town of his parents. He had heard people speaking of a pilgrimage place called Mount Arunachala. He wanted to go there and he had the fees in his pocket. So he went to the railway station and the money did not cover the whole journey. He told the booking clerk, “Give me a ticket as far as my money goes.” He bought a ticket to a place called Tirkalur, 20 miles short of his destination. He was wearing gold earrings, so when he got down at the station he was able to sell them to someone and to complete his journey.
He started meditation to locate what the consciousness was. For years he was not heard of. Sometimes he was going to beg for bhiksha (food obtained by asking for alms). No one knew who this person is. After many years people started going to him. When the light shines everyone is attracted. People from all over the world went to him and stayed. There are still people there. It was a forest on the slopes of this hill, and now it has become an international centre.
Many people were seeing him, many people were going to him, kings and presidents of other countries were going to him. I never knew because he was in the South of India and I was in the North. I was searching for a guru but somehow I didn’t like any of them because I found only commercialization.
I went to the Himalayas. I went around to all the well known gurus. I went to Rishikesh, to Uttarpashi, to Tapawanum, to Haridwar. I also went to traditional gurus. I wandered by the bank of Ganga, to Kashipuri. I went down to the desert, down to the South – I went everywhere. Everywhere I went they wanted to initiate me and asked me to do sadhana (disciplined practice of meditation techniques).
When I had gone and sat with them my question was only, “Can you show me God? Have you seen Him? If you have seen Him, can you show me? What fees do I have to pay you? If you have not seen and you cannot show me, tell me straight forward that you have not seen Him and you cannot show me.” But this much nobody dared to tell. They would say, “You have to sit down and do sadhana.”
I said, “Why sadhana? When I go to a shop I have money in my pocket, he has the commodity I want. He will not tell me. ‘You first meditate in front of the shop then I will give it to you.” Nobody will say this. If you have something give it to me and ask me any price, I will pay the price. I will serve you all my life.”
But they would only say, “You have to go through a long sadhana.” In Rishikesh a man had been doing sadhana for 50 years. He was pointing at me saying, “Look at this man!” Everyone was laughing. “This man is standing in an army dress. ‘Show me God,’ he says.” They were mocking me. They were making a joke of me, standing asking them to show me God. “It’s not something to be shown. He doesn’t go through sadhana; he does not agree with sadhana.”
There was one swami (religious teacher) in Tapowan. He was very well known and very old, about 88 years old. But then I saw he was having a court case with one very poor sadhu (ascetic holy man) just occupying a thatch hut. He said, “He is occupying my place. He doesn’t vacate. I will get an advocate.” He had plenty of land and this was only one man not harming anyone, only mediating alone. He was living there in a place ten feet by ten feet in one corner of the land. The swami wanted to make a wall there. Somehow I didn’t like, he wanted to throw this sadhu out. When he has about ten acres of land why doesn’t he allow him a space ten feet by ten feet. After all, he is a sadhu. He was bringing an eviction order and all that. I didn’t like. I saw so many people like this and I returned back home. Very much disappointed and dejected I returned home. And the money that I had saved I spent already.
One day I was going to take lunch and I saw a man standing outside. I asked him, “If you want to take, come in and take food with me. And if you want monetary help I will help you. If you want food come in.” He came in. I asked my mother to bring another plate of food and gave it to him. And then I asked him, “Are you a sannyasin (hindhu religious mendicant)? You must have travelled throughout the country. Have you come across any person who is God-realized, who is enlightened and free? Have you seen anyone? If you have, give me the address; I will go to see him.” He gave me an address and I noted down for the first time the name of a town called Tiruvanamalai, and he told me how to get there. Then he went away.
I decided not to tell my wife or my parents what had happened. I went out to the town. I had no funds as I had spent everything in my search for a guru and my father would not give me any money. When I was walking in the town an old friend called out to me – we had done physical exercises together. “You have not been seen around here. I heard that you had joined the army and since then we have not seen you.” I sat down with him and saw an old Punjab newspaper lying in his shop on the table, the Old Tribune was the name. Immediately my eye went to the wanted advertisements. It was written, they required one ex-army officer to work in our CBI stores to supply army supplies to some British shipment. They were contractors in Pishawar and one unit was going to Madras. I saw a man was advertising for an ex-army officer to serve in Madras. So I applied and they sent me money to cover my first class ticket, and gave me one month’s time to report. I said to myself “I’ve got money now.” With that money I went straight in search of Ramana Maharshi’s ashram at Arunachala.
I got down at the railway station and booked a bullock cart, which was the local transportation. I went to the ashram, and left all my baggage outside. I was going to start my work in Madras so I had all my bedding with me. I left it outside and went into the hall where a man was sitting. As soon as I saw this man I recognized that it was the same man who had given me the address in Punjab. I became very angry with him. I didn’t go to see him. I didn’t even enter the hall. I just went to find another cart to go back to the railway station. There was a Parsi man there; his name was Thromji. Later on we became friends. He came to me and said, “You seem to be a North Indian.” “Yes, I am,” I replied. “Then how is it that you have just arrived and now you are going back?” I told him, “This man is a fraud! He met me just fifteen days ago in Punjab and he gave me his own address that he is a God-realized man.” “No, no,” he said. It’s not possible. You are making a mistake.” I said, “How can I make a mistake? I am not mad. He is the same man. I am quite fit, both in body and mind. I cannot make such a mistake. In only fifteen days I cannot forget. He is the same man.”
He said, “No. This man has not moved from this place in 50 years. You can ask anyone. Either you have seen someone else and you are mistaking the identity, or this man must have appeared to you through his own power to help you. We have heard of some three or four instances. So come with me, I will introduce you to the manager of this ashram and you can stay in the guest house.” So he took me and insisted that I went there, and they give me a place to stay.
Then I went inside. He was not speaking to anybody. Everybody was quiet, but something was going on in this silence. For the first time I saw this happening without talking. Something was there; some vibration was there which was entering into my heart. After about 10 minutes there was a bell for lunch. Maharishi got up, everybody got up – there were maybe 15 or 20 people there – and we all went in the hall to take lunch together. Then Maharshi went back to his hall alone; no one else followed him. After lunch Maharshi took rest, and then people came again in the hall at 2:30. I never knew this rule. So seeing him alone I went in straight away, but as I was going in the attendant stopped me. He said, “You come back at 2:30.” Maharshi was looking and he signaled me to come in.
I went inside and asked him, “It was you wasn’t it, who saw me and gave me your own address in Punjab?” He kept quiet. “If it was you why didn’t you tell me? I wanted to see God. Why you didn’t do it there, and why have you called me here? I have come here and you don’t speak with me. I do not understand.” Still he was silent. I said, “I do not understand your silence. Please speak to me.” Still he was silent. Still he was silent, so I was not very happy.
I was in love with Lord Krishna since my boyhood. It was a constant force in my life. So I said, “Ok, this place is very nice, I like this place. This mountain is very beautiful, there are forests, there are monkeys, there are peacocks. I will live here. I will go to the forest and stay there.” I went to the forest. I had a month before I had to join my duties and I had used up only five days. So I went to the other side of the hill for some time, knowing I could join my duties later on and knowing I was in a good place.
Then the time came for me to go, so I decided to go and prostrate before him and then to leave. I came to him. He was there again, and once again he was alone. Very few people went to see him, very few. He asked me, “Why didn’t you come for so many days?” I was very proud. I said, “I have been playing with my God.” “Very good, very well.” He said. “You have been playing with God?” “Yes, I was. I have always been.” “Do you see him now? Do you see him now?” “Not now,” I said. “Not now. When I have vision I see him, sometimes in the night also. When I have vision I see him, not always. That’s why I want to see him always.”
Then he said, “God does not appear and disappear.”
For the first time I heard this: “God is reality itself. God doesn’t disappear. He is appearance itself. So what appears and disappears is only mental, is only imagination.” I didn’t like this philosophy that I was hearing. “The god appeared and disappeared. And the seer is still here, he who has seen god is still here. Find out who the seer is.”
I had never been confronted at any time by anyone with this question before. Neither the living saints nor any of the past saints I had heard about could confront you like this, with this question: “Find out who the seer is. Find out who you are. That does not disappear. Always it is there, whether you are awake or dreaming or asleep. This seer is always there. Now you tell me who this seer is.”
No answer came for this question but I had an experience to find out the source of ‘I’. It worked it my case. On my first trip to the guru I found it. Actually the seer was always there; the source of ‘I’ was always there. He simply asked me to, “Find out who the seer is.” That’s what he said. In his presence I experienced the seer, what it was. It was so quick. My body was vibrating and became One. I did not understand this tremendous bliss, this tremendous happiness, this beauty, in just an instant.
This teaching is the ultimate teaching, which I try to present to you every day. I don’t think any other teaching is worth striving for except to discover your own Self. Later on, if you need anything else you may go in search of it. Here and now find out who you are. This is the ultimate Reality, this is the ultimate teaching. I don’t think any other teaching can surpass this teaching. Know your Self and then know the rest, if it is needed. This false appearance will disappear in the recognition of your own Self. This false appearance will not show up again when the Real is revealed to you. That has no form and no name; Thathas no geographical location anywhere, neither inside nor outside. This is Eternal Rest. Each of you is already in this. The only impediment is your preoccupation with something else, with something unreal. That is the only hindrance. Otherwise this Freedom, this Wisdom, this Beauty, this Love is always inviting you. You only have to turn your attention within your own Self and you see that you have always been free. This is your own nature.
There is no need to seek, no need to hunt it down anywhere else. It is already here. You only have to abandon the notion that, “I am bound. I am suffering. I am born. I have to die.” This is simply a notion that you have entertained somehow, due to your unmindfulness. This will disappear instantly when you want it to, when you need it to, when you desire it, instantly this is here. You do not need to go and search for it – it is not an object to search for. It is your very inner nature. It is very close, closer even than your breath. When something is closer and nearer than the breath what effort do you need to meet it? It is so near, so dear, so intimate to you, but you are lost in fulfilling your desires with those things or people which are not worth making friends with. They appear and disappear – they are not permanent, they are not real. So what is the use of that hunt which is not abiding, which is not living, which is not eternal, which is disturbing? It’s not wise to purchase disturbance for nothing. If you are a good buyer you will make a bargain for those things which do not disappear. That will be the real diamond, and having that you will not see your poverty.
I went away to Madras and joined my duty. They gave me a very good bungalow and a car. Every Saturday we had half day of work, and Sunday was a full day off. So I started coming every weekend for a day and a half. Whenever I got holidays I went there for some months. Then the partitioning of India was going to take place and some friends living permanently in the ashram asked me which part of Punjab I belonged to, to the West or East? I said: “West, other side of the river.” “Do you know that place is now Pakistan?” I was not reading any papers, nor interested in politics. I never knew anything. He asked me, “What about your family?” I said, “Everybody is in Punjab, in West Punjab. Nobody is in India except myself.” He said, “Why don’t you go and take care of them?” I said, “No, it’s over now; my connection with my family is over. After seeing this man, I have no connection whatsoever with anybody.”
He told Maharishi what I had said. So as I was going on my evening walk Maharishi was there with a few people. He asked Maharishi about my situation, that India was going to be partitioned and my family was in Pakistan. Maharishi asked me, “Why don’t you go?” And I said, “It was a dream. It was a dream; I had a wife, I had children and I had parents, I have relations. It was a dream. My dream is over now.” “Oh, very good if your dream is over. A dream is a dream, so why are you are afraid of a dream? If you know it is a dream go and see the dream then.”
I saw he was winning a point and I wouldn’t allow it. So I said, “No. Now I am physically attached to you, I have physical attachment. I cannot leave you. I want to stay with you. I’ll let anything happen, whatever it is. I can’t save anybody.”
Then he looked at me and said, “I am with you wherever you are.” These are the words in my mind. They helped me even when I left. There was no trouble for any of my family. I brought back them back to Lucknow in August of ’47. There was no trouble. There was trouble all around but it was very safe for us. The guru, the master helps everywhere.
Many of times, we didn’t listen to what Life is trying to tell us.
We didn’t allow time to stay for what it is, and instead let our minds continue running the show.
It’s perfectly fine to let yourself play out the show, for you’ll come to realize that’s what Life is. But problems arise as we identify ourselves with the mind all the time. When that happens, we tend to take things for granted, and miss out on the full colors, tastes, beauty, love & joy that Life offers.
However as we let go of the illusion of time – past & future, the present allows us to see things without the mind, as they are.
With this clarity, we have the ability to realize the beauty within things we’ve always had but never truly appreciated.
So I urge you, if you’re reading this, allow yourself the liberty to listen.
Listen to Now, for being here… you have everything you need.
That includes God.
Burt Harding, a spiritual teacher explains the Lord’s prayer (as adopted by Christians) in a way that’s free of judgment. Eventually, his explanations allowed me to ease in to the present moment. When this happens, I take it as God’s way of nodding to what is real through our hearts.